Day 68: Horrible Day

Just as I was about to write a few words about how much today royally sucked, my mom called. Today was a crappy day - more so than normal. Generally I don't consider most days to be bad, but today was definitely unique in that. To top it off I found out my mom has been in the ER and was diagnosed with some kind of a disorder that is preliminary to Parkinson's Disease. Wonderful. Even better...she went to her friends first before coming to me, her family. I always felt like I took a backseat to her trendy AA friends and the GLBT community. But I thought that if she ever ended up back in the ER she'd call me. 

I haven't felt this alone in a long time. It seemed like I was starting to do okay. But maybe I was just getting good at disguising it. 

Honestly, at this point I'm just so ready to go to bed and end this day that I'm not sure I have the energy to analyze or reflect anything more. 

Will try to pick up the pieces tomorrow and think of something brilliant to write about.